A tidbit of conversation had Sunday night while out to dinner...
Me: I don't understand how men can memorize all these names, numbers, and statistics about professional athletes.
Tim: I can remember that Steve Smith is number 12 for the New York Giants. You can cook breakfast. Which is more useful?
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Monday, October 6, 2008
facing the change
I admit it, I'm a terrible blogger. It's been months since the last update, but I am hoping that I will, with Michael's push, update more frequently even if the posts be shorter and less thoughtful.
Hanging out with Lily this evening, I realized that I am, in fact, no longer an undergraduate student. I am not stressed about my coursework, I have a substantial amount more independence in my research, and the campus extracurricular life is non-existent. Instead, I drove an hour and half each way today to get to my company's main office to spend the day making maps. It was enjoyable, but a transition that I did not anticipate would happen so quickly. In this journey of adjustment, my body, heart, and soul have a bumpy ride. but, I think realization is the first step to a healthier life, so here it goes!
In other words, I got paid today. Sweet. Now I have to learn to budget instead of just not eating. Also, my brother is coming home from college this weekend for the first time. I am thrilled to see him! And my sister comes home next weekend. They will be good for my soul.
For now, this is all. But consider this a promise to update again before the month is up.
Hanging out with Lily this evening, I realized that I am, in fact, no longer an undergraduate student. I am not stressed about my coursework, I have a substantial amount more independence in my research, and the campus extracurricular life is non-existent. Instead, I drove an hour and half each way today to get to my company's main office to spend the day making maps. It was enjoyable, but a transition that I did not anticipate would happen so quickly. In this journey of adjustment, my body, heart, and soul have a bumpy ride. but, I think realization is the first step to a healthier life, so here it goes!
In other words, I got paid today. Sweet. Now I have to learn to budget instead of just not eating. Also, my brother is coming home from college this weekend for the first time. I am thrilled to see him! And my sister comes home next weekend. They will be good for my soul.
For now, this is all. But consider this a promise to update again before the month is up.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
happy birthday?
I'll be turning 22 tomorrow. I have feelings about this. What worries me is that people have accomplished more than I have, seen more of this world, and been much happier than I have in these 22 years. It's not a competition thing or a jealousy thing, but it makes me feel that I am not taking full advantage of life, and I worry that I will ever have the time, energy and resources to do everything I wish I could ever do.
This past week was an absolute roller coaster of emotions and I think the personal fallout will last at least a couple more weeks. I have this constant sense of searching, and for what I do not know. Maybe it's companionship, which delves into a whole other realm of complicated feelings, hopes, dreams, and mainly fears. Lonely has been a big part of what I've been dealing with. And I don't think that the past tense is necessarily correct for that sentence. Part of the process of finding my north star is dealing with my emotional scars. I know I've been working on this even pre-Martha Beck but I am unsure of the next step. I am almost sure I'm at the move on, be happy, find someone part but gosh impatience is rotten. Maybe the next chapter in the book will help?
I need to work on my self image and knowing what I want out of the people in my life. And figuring out how to get what I want out of life. Emotionally, mostly, not material.
That's it.
This past week was an absolute roller coaster of emotions and I think the personal fallout will last at least a couple more weeks. I have this constant sense of searching, and for what I do not know. Maybe it's companionship, which delves into a whole other realm of complicated feelings, hopes, dreams, and mainly fears. Lonely has been a big part of what I've been dealing with. And I don't think that the past tense is necessarily correct for that sentence. Part of the process of finding my north star is dealing with my emotional scars. I know I've been working on this even pre-Martha Beck but I am unsure of the next step. I am almost sure I'm at the move on, be happy, find someone part but gosh impatience is rotten. Maybe the next chapter in the book will help?
I need to work on my self image and knowing what I want out of the people in my life. And figuring out how to get what I want out of life. Emotionally, mostly, not material.
That's it.
Monday, June 23, 2008
yes we will
Lately it has been the little things in life that make me smile the most.
I just got back from running some errands. While waiting at a stop light on Park Ave, a white truck pulled up next to me and waited for me to turn and look at the drive. He was an average guy, mid to late thirties I'd guess. Instead of asking for directions like I expected, he asked where I got my Barack Obama bumper sticker. At a rally, I told him, but they can be purchased on his website.
The man responded that this is the first political candidate that he has ever been actually excited about.
We exchanged smiles, frustrations about the war, and well wishes as the light turned green. What an amazing connection. This short moment in my day has reaffirmed my faith in this country. This is a time for change, and the change agents are out there and active. I expected my bumper sticker to cause some sort of reaction from someone, at some point, but this was amazing. This morning on MSNBC a poll showed Obama with a 16 point lead above McCain. I think we can do this. I also believe we need to in order to heal the cities of this nation and reunite our divided populations.
Fired up and ready to go.
I just got back from running some errands. While waiting at a stop light on Park Ave, a white truck pulled up next to me and waited for me to turn and look at the drive. He was an average guy, mid to late thirties I'd guess. Instead of asking for directions like I expected, he asked where I got my Barack Obama bumper sticker. At a rally, I told him, but they can be purchased on his website.
The man responded that this is the first political candidate that he has ever been actually excited about.
We exchanged smiles, frustrations about the war, and well wishes as the light turned green. What an amazing connection. This short moment in my day has reaffirmed my faith in this country. This is a time for change, and the change agents are out there and active. I expected my bumper sticker to cause some sort of reaction from someone, at some point, but this was amazing. This morning on MSNBC a poll showed Obama with a 16 point lead above McCain. I think we can do this. I also believe we need to in order to heal the cities of this nation and reunite our divided populations.
Fired up and ready to go.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
what a fiasco
it has now been about a month since ashley and i moved into our apartment. courtney has since joined us, which has been a fabulous experience. we have had amazing bonding moments, moving from tears to hysterical laughter, as the best of girlfriends always do.
this house, however, has filled our days with "fiasco"s, as i have lovingly dubbed our frightful yet amusing-in-hindsight adventures here at 14 clifton. some of the most memorable include the man running from the cops (our very own fugitive!) who came to hang out in our backyard with us, eddie the forgetful handyman, and above all, the tree.
that was an interesting day.
in the name of self-advancement, i am attepting to make a pretty substaintial life chage. really, breaking what i did not know was a bad habit. i am now double spacing between sentences. part of me feels like i need to go through my entire 50-page honors thesis and remedy my mistake. oh well.
on a happier note, i got a position at an environmental consulting firm downtown (see previous post). this summer will be an unpaid internship position, but the fall promises paychecks. looks like it's ramen noodles for the rest of the summer.
i started reading a new book. finding your own north star by martha beck. oprah inspired me to reconnect with the universe, and i really do believe it has been making my life somehow better. a positive outlook and realizing your own faults can be invigorating. the universe and i are definitely on better terms than we have been in the past, and i'm looking forward to living my best life.
but for now, it's back to killing ants in my kitchen and budgeting out the money for new lightbulbs.
this house, however, has filled our days with "fiasco"s, as i have lovingly dubbed our frightful yet amusing-in-hindsight adventures here at 14 clifton. some of the most memorable include the man running from the cops (our very own fugitive!) who came to hang out in our backyard with us, eddie the forgetful handyman, and above all, the tree.
that was an interesting day.
in the name of self-advancement, i am attepting to make a pretty substaintial life chage. really, breaking what i did not know was a bad habit. i am now double spacing between sentences. part of me feels like i need to go through my entire 50-page honors thesis and remedy my mistake. oh well.
on a happier note, i got a position at an environmental consulting firm downtown (see previous post). this summer will be an unpaid internship position, but the fall promises paychecks. looks like it's ramen noodles for the rest of the summer.
i started reading a new book. finding your own north star by martha beck. oprah inspired me to reconnect with the universe, and i really do believe it has been making my life somehow better. a positive outlook and realizing your own faults can be invigorating. the universe and i are definitely on better terms than we have been in the past, and i'm looking forward to living my best life.
but for now, it's back to killing ants in my kitchen and budgeting out the money for new lightbulbs.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
nesting
these recent couple of weeks have been spent 'nesting' in my first real apartment. last night i spent the night in the house all by myself; no roomates in my own off-campus place. sure i was a little scared, but i did it and i'm still here. it is interesting to be dealing with the little quirks of an old house that i can call my own... we have ants, a broken back door, dead light bulbs, and overgrown shrubs in the front yard. there are some cats that wander around our backyard, and ashley found some garden snakes the other day.
i've been spending the little money i have on things like tea lights and sponges, bedding and vegetable steamers. domestic. i enjoy it, and i am above other things glad to be staying in the same place for an entire 12 months. that hasn't happened since high school. and the summer in worcester are fabulous and sunny and full of barbecues with friends and owning this city.
i have an interview on friday with an environmental consulting firm downtown. i am feeling hopeful about this, and it has the opportunity to remain part time throughout the summer and the school year. other things would have to change, but i think i can deal with that and be flexible. it's all part of growing up and going where life takes you.
michael got the position at suffolk in boston. i am amazingly proud of him and so happy that he will be moving to the big city and moving on with his life at a place that will embrace him and where he can thrive at what he does best.
note to self: don't bother making iced rooibos tea again. not worth it.
i've been spending the little money i have on things like tea lights and sponges, bedding and vegetable steamers. domestic. i enjoy it, and i am above other things glad to be staying in the same place for an entire 12 months. that hasn't happened since high school. and the summer in worcester are fabulous and sunny and full of barbecues with friends and owning this city.
i have an interview on friday with an environmental consulting firm downtown. i am feeling hopeful about this, and it has the opportunity to remain part time throughout the summer and the school year. other things would have to change, but i think i can deal with that and be flexible. it's all part of growing up and going where life takes you.
michael got the position at suffolk in boston. i am amazingly proud of him and so happy that he will be moving to the big city and moving on with his life at a place that will embrace him and where he can thrive at what he does best.
note to self: don't bother making iced rooibos tea again. not worth it.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
words of wisdom
these tidbits of advice have been my source of inspiration and hope the past few days and will likely come in handy later in life...
you are far too young to make a bad decision. no decision you make will be a bad one.
there is a ratio of about one bottle of wine to every five pages of a paper.
particularly a thesis.
tomorrow's wind blows tomorrow.
on that note, back to my bottle of bohemian highway and the last paper i will ever write as an undergraduate.
you are far too young to make a bad decision. no decision you make will be a bad one.
there is a ratio of about one bottle of wine to every five pages of a paper.
particularly a thesis.
tomorrow's wind blows tomorrow.
on that note, back to my bottle of bohemian highway and the last paper i will ever write as an undergraduate.
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